Presents

It seems that every year there is always something that I want to get. One big thing that I want more than anything. One year it was a cell phone, another it was a camera, another it was stereo; it has always been one big thing that I have always wanted and then a few little things. However, this year I find that there really isn't anything that I am begging my parents to get me. They asked me what I wanted, and really... I had nothing to say. Maybe a few things for my car, maybe tinted windows in my car would be nice, I would love to have a brand new wooden clarinet for Christmas.... but that's not going to happen and I am not even going to ask for that. A really good wooden clarinet can run between 3000 and 5000 dollars. Like I said, I am not even going to ask that of them. This year I just really want to be with the family more than anything else. After this Christmas I will have one more Christmas with them.. and then I am out on my own. Yes, I will come back for Christmas. But that's different. Waking up in a house the morning of Christmas to open presents in a house you live in, versus waking up in a house that you are just back visiting and will have to leave in week... well it will just be different. I am still undecided if this will be a good different or a bad different, yet I know it will be different. Also, even though I know that this is my last real Christmas to ask for anything big for a while, I still have nothing to tell them. Next year I will be asking for things for my dorm for when I move up to college.. and the year after that will probably consist on things for basic living that I will be lacking.
I guess what I was getting at.. is that I will be leaving soon and I want to cherish every moment I have left of being a kid... versus when I will truly have to start acting more mature. My life and future will count on it soon. But for now...who cares? I'm just going to be the old silly me. :)