Presents

It seems that every year there is always something that I want to get. One big thing that I want more than anything. One year it was a cell phone, another it was a camera, another it was stereo; it has always been one big thing that I have always wanted and then a few little things. However, this year I find that there really isn't anything that I am begging my parents to get me. They asked me what I wanted, and really... I had nothing to say. Maybe a few things for my car, maybe tinted windows in my car would be nice, I would love to have a brand new wooden clarinet for Christmas.... but that's not going to happen and I am not even going to ask for that. A really good wooden clarinet can run between 3000 and 5000 dollars. Like I said, I am not even going to ask that of them. This year I just really want to be with the family more than anything else. After this Christmas I will have one more Christmas with them.. and then I am out on my own. Yes, I will come back for Christmas. But that's different. Waking up in a house the morning of Christmas to open presents in a house you live in, versus waking up in a house that you are just back visiting and will have to leave in week... well it will just be different. I am still undecided if this will be a good different or a bad different, yet I know it will be different. Also, even though I know that this is my last real Christmas to ask for anything big for a while, I still have nothing to tell them. Next year I will be asking for things for my dorm for when I move up to college.. and the year after that will probably consist on things for basic living that I will be lacking.
I guess what I was getting at.. is that I will be leaving soon and I want to cherish every moment I have left of being a kid... versus when I will truly have to start acting more mature. My life and future will count on it soon. But for now...who cares? I'm just going to be the old silly me. :)

The New Play

For those of you who do not know, we, the Blue House Players, will be putting on the production of Anne Frank in April. Yesterday we had our auditions for this play. There were several people who were trying out for Anne Frank, and many who failed at getting the part, since there could only be one Anne Frank in the play. In all honesty, I believe that the parts that were given in the play were very well casted; however there are some that would care to argue. This is why, a lot of the times, I absolutely dread having auditions. Not because I am afraid that I wont get a part, or that I won´t get the part that I wanted, but because there are a lot people in drama who are sore losers. If they don´t get the part they want then they threaten to quit the class. First off, if you are a senior (for most of them are that complain), then grow up! In a lot of clubs and sports you can call seniority, but not in drama. Drama is about who is best for the part, not about who has been in the class longer. GROW UP! Then for those that are not casted and got put in Lights or Backstage or House and you complain... give me a break! The one person that always talks of putting on the best production and this and this and this... well obviously you were not good enough as to be able to portray a character correctly, or rather there were other people better suited for the part. To be able to put on the best production of Anne Frank, the best possible cast list was made after reviewing all of the people; and I emphasize: the BEST cast list. So take one for the good of the play and sit back, shut up, and stop the crying, because really, it got old 2 years ago.

how to say no.. without using no...

You could say...
I'll take a pass.
I would prefer not.
I decline.
It is inevitably not going to happen.
The circumstances creates the occasion to not arise.
I ask you to refrain from asking the question.
I do not say yes.
Na.
I would rather not.
I will never accept your proposal.
Nope.
Nothing will give me the incentive to receive your offer.
I can not do that.
Don't bet on it.
There is not an intention of my approval and acceptance of the idea.
I absolutely believe that there is not a chance of this ever becoming true.

Not the same Thanksgiving

Typically people have family traditions for their holidays. Our only tradition is that we are all together. We have turkey every year, so that’s a tradition I guess too. Every year what we do varies and there never seems to be a definite plan to what’s going to happen. Sometimes we go to St. Louis for the Holidays. My grandparents live there so we go up there to visit and spend the holidays. However, this year we are in the process of moving so we are for sure not going up to my grandparents. Another downer to go along with this information is that fact that our oven… well it is broken. We cannot cook anything in the oven; we can cook on the stove top, but not in the oven. This really has dismayed me… because I was really looking forward to that big turkey dinner; but even better than turkey dinner on thanksgiving… the leftovers. I love to have cold turkey sandwiches the next day… and the day after that… and the day after that… then I need a break… then the day after that :) Then we also have stuffing, deviled eggs, fried corn, rolls, green bean casserole, potato casserole, just all the food! It is great. Mom and Dad said that we are going to go a restaurant to eat... at the Gold Corale.I think that is the restaurant that they said. All well it doesn't... this Thanksgiving just isn't going to feel like Thanksgiving without family and the food.

Just let me Breath!!!!

It seems that sometimes people don’t understand all that one is busy with.  They don’t understand that you are in all honor and AP classes. They don’t understand that you have a job that you go to almost every day. They don’t understand that you have a family. They don’t understand that you are in Band or drama, or clubs, or any other activity that you might be involved in. They don’t understand that you have a family that you would like to be with sometimes. They don’t understand that you have friends that you would like to have some time with to just have fun. They don’t understand all that you do. They expect you to let the world revolve around them. They expect you to drop everything and do what they want. They expect that you live to please them. It is crazy how people think that you aren’t into anything and you have all the time in the world to accomplish and do anything that you want to. I wish so much that this was true. I wish that there were more hours in the day, and that I had more energy to get it all done. But I don’t. I can’t. There is so much going on every day that it seems that I can’t get it all done. Yes, I try dearly, but I can’t. It seems that I am always letting someone down, angering someone, and not doing enough for another. I wish that they would all take a breather, so that I could take a breather.

Here comes the play..

Here comes our play... whether we are ready or not.
We are destined to have our play production of Works in Progress on the 17, 18, and 19 of November. I am always excitied for our productions (our being the Blue House Players), yet im very apprehensive of this production. There are still people who dont know all their lines... and people who are skipping the much needed rehearsals. I feel that we are very unprepared for the upcoming production. When we do have rehearsal and everyone is there (or at least almost everyone) there tends to be a lot of goofing off and we dont get everything done. We still have not had a full run through of the play either; it often seems that we cant even get through a full scene without there being someone who breaks character. I wish that people would grow up and take things seriously. I truely hope that next year the slackers are cut from the class. It is very frustrating to those who work their tales off when others only goof off and dont know their lines.
soo..  here it comes... the production of  Works in Progress by the Blue House Players

even if some are still not ready.

Why always the horrible?

Why is it that we always focus on the horrible things in life rather than the good things? Even our news would rather show the disastorous events than the heart warming events. We hear about drug deals, murders, rapists, assualts, kidnappings, vehicle accidents, etc, etc every day. To this I feel that it is sad. Yes the reason that our news channels tend to do the negative reports is because that's what human beings want to watch. We want to see the horrible things. Why is that we dont want to hear those good heart warming stories of people doing great things for others? Something that might encourage you to do the same for another, or maybe just put a smile on your face. Is it because we want to always have something to complain about? Can we never be content with a day if nothing were to happen in the shady area? Or is it that we want to blame others? Do we want to have other people to look at and scorn so that we can forget what we ourselves have done? So what is it that compells us to go towards the darkening events, rather than listening to the light touching events instead?

Holidays

Soon the Holidays are coming. They really have snuck up on me this year. It seems each year they come faster and faster; soon they will come running. I love the Holiday seasons. Its a time to rejoice and have fun. A time to relax and remember. Its a time for the family. Its time for friends. Its a time to give thanks, to realize again that you are blessed with much. A time to remember how great your life is, even with the ups and downs. A time of horrid coldness, which brings you closer to create warmth in the hearts of all. A time to shed tears of joy and tears of sadness. A time to witness all. A time to make memories with those that you love.
Its just time to live, laugh, and love.

Too bad we cant do this all the time.